Currently Playing Worldwide Underground By Erykah Badu see related

on hiatus for an unknown length of time...
only because the computer i use the majority of the time hates on me too much.
the patience thins with this wack ass device.
hopefully next time i'm on this thang, i'll be in chi already.
my life should be chronicled by living instead of posting anyways... hehe. my story will be published someday. no worries. cheers.

Lj

Currently Watching The Mask of Zorro (Special Edition) By Antonio Banderas, Anthony Hopkins, Catherine Zeta-Jones see related

bullish: Hi jg_supafly! It's been 385 (wow, that's a big number) days since you joined Xanga... won't you support us by going Premium? beat it! and they think saying "that's a big number" is going to make me pay? wack.

i've been working for the man like crazy... updates soon. thank you to all that have been visiting. i've been reading and writing poetry again... well to the best of my ability when the time presents itself. i just wanna say wooooahdae to my girl michelle. she has a dope ass piece on her site right now and it blew me away. she's one of the few people that truly inspire me to believe in the spoken word, even when it's corrupt and suspect as any other art form out there. word to free speech. i just wish the man would stop censoring me. anyways, the blabbing of a tired woman continues... i'll stop here for now.

g'night virtual abyss

Lj

and it begins...

less than four words: i miss him.

long awaited "tomorrow": 20 june 2G4

amusement: richard cheese on carson daley

ear candy: steve parks - thinking of you

i still hear our song... i love you.

kristine

Currently Playing Maxinquaye By Tricky see related

feeling dissed and disappointed isn't right... especially when it comes from your friends that are supposed to care and respect the person you are. i never front. i never did. and last night i think i did and knew i was. WACK.

hung out with the old "crew" from high school last night. my girl from miniapples came down since school is over and picked me up. we rode out to the old spots and reminisced a lil bit. then we ended up going to another girl's crib, who happens to be my childhood bestfriend... odd. we hung out there and the people hangin' out at her cribbo were the people we would chill with on "nothing" days after class in high school. we had a lot of "nothing" days, you could say. same ol shit. as if three years didn't pass by. beyond lame.

this one dood who claims i was the first "filipino girl" he's ever met was there. in hs we would have this fake sexual tension game going on. he had the tension and i was sexually against him. ha. he would spit out racial slurs everyday at the lockers in the mornings and smack my ass before school let out. he would stare at my ass in 7th period chemistry class and still speaks of it today. he's wanted to do me ever since, or so he says. initial reaction to this derogatory treatment? NOTHING. i do nothing! i'm a bad ass when a guy tries to get in my pants. i can punch your face with verbal abuse when you insult who i am or my momma and i do NOTHING to the motherfucker. i bring up dumbshit just to pass the time and he in turn just uses it against me and talks to me as if i possess no intelligence whatsoever. i still stand idle. wtf? i turned into my hs persona in three hours. i finally bounced with my girl out the hs bubble, but i don't know why i take that shit from him. am i just lazy that i don't want to deal with it? i do know it's not worth it, but even in hs i just played along to get him away. APATHY is not always the way to go. i'm not afraid of him, i'm annoyed by him. who knows... if our paths ever cross again, i might just one up him and he'll remember it for DAYS. the atmosphere overtook me as if i was possessed. maybe if the old crew wasn't there i would have snapped. alcohol consumption might have helped?

dissappointed is way worse than disappointment. fuck ya'll hoes. i'll cut you.

Lj